Monday 19 September 2016

Nothing

When I was eight I created an imaginary world that I lived in. 
It made me happy. 
It protected me from the ghouls and vampires that sucked the happiness and life out of me,
the ones who would call us names and tell us we were nothing. 
Nothing. What is nothing? 
Nothing is a word with which we fill our own minds 
to tell ourselves that it will go away
Eventually. 

Nothing is a disguise of what's really in front of us.
Nothing is the half empty bottle of excuses we open for ourselves when we ask ourselves what's really wrong.
How many times do we say that word per day?
When we are pushed around and let down
back down the same road of sorrow you travel day after day.
How can we cover the self-loathing any longer?

We are told to keep our mouths shut but told to speak up when silent 
We are told that sticks and stones may break our bones but words can never hurt us
but how on earth do we overcome the burning of the liquor down our throats at just 16?  

Our lives are masterpieces slowly designed
and sometimes the outlines aren't as good as the others 
but what we have is all we've got.

Escaping reality is just another past time of what we call nothing.

June 24, 2016

That day I realised that you are the one I love.
As I lay in my bed, I dreamed that you were there beside me.
I reached my hand out for yours and, in between us,
You intertwined them.
You pulled me closer,
And intertwined us.
I gazed into your eyes,
I laid my head against your chest,
And I heard your heart.
Its speed began to increase,
As did mine.
In this moment,
I knew.
Our love was intertwined.

Anonymous

Tuesday 5 April 2016

It All Started With a Simple Sentence

It all started with a simple sentence.
"Was that an earthquake, or did you just rock my world?"
I guess you could say it was both because I fell hard. Really hard. Nothing meant as much to me as to wake up to a text from her saying that she wished me a good day and that she loved me. It wasn't anything overly romantic but it made me happy and loved and it made me feel warm. We used to talk to talk way into the night waiting for 11:11 so we could make a wish, but I didn't need to because I already had everything I could wish for and more. I caught myself thinking about her 24/7, about her smile, about her eyes, about her laugh, about all the time I wanted to spend with her. I still think about those things, but I stop myself because I know that the morning text that made me feel so special wasn't going to come, that staying up 'til 11:11 only made me wish for her back, that I'd never be able to see her smile, her eyes and her laugh again. Just as it started with one simple sentence, it ended with one too.
"so I guess goodbye..."


Anonymous